I'm currently rereading Dorothy L Sayers's
Gaudy Night, and although I've read it many times before, I was struck and touched by this passage today (Chapter XI):
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She [Harriet] held on her knee the looseleaf notebook that contained her notes upon the Shrewsbury; but her heart was not in that sordid inquiry. A detatched pentameter, echoing out of nowhere, was beating in her ears -- seven marching feet -- a pentameter and a half: --
To that still center where the spinning world
Sleeps on its axis --
Had she made it or remembered it? It sounded familiar, but in her heart she knew certainly that it was her own, and seemed familiar only because it was inevitable and right.
She opened the notebook at another page and wrote the words down. She felt like the man in the
Punch story: "Nice little barf-room, Liza -- what shall we do with it?" Blank verse? . . . No . . . it was part of the octave of a sonnet . . . it had the feel of a sonnet. But what a rhyme-sound! Curled? furled? . . . she fumbled over rhyme and meter, like an unpracticed musician fingering the keys of a disused instrument.
Then, with many false starts and blank feet, returning and filling and erasing painfully as she went, she began to write again, knowing with a deep inner certainty that somehow, after long and bitter wandering, she was once more in her own place.
Here, then, at home . . .
the center, the middle sea, the heart of the labyrinth . . .
Here, then, at home, by no more storms distrest,
Stay we our steps -- course -- flight -- hands folded and wings furled.
Here, then, at home, by no more storms distrest,
Folding laborious hands we sit, wings furled;
Here in close perfume lies the rose-leaf curled,
Here the sun stands and knows not east nor west,
Here no tide runs; we have come, last and best,
From the wide zone through dizzying circles hurled,
To that still center where the spinning world
Sleeps on its axis, to the heart of rest.
Yes; there was something there, though the meter halted monotonously, lacking a free stress-shift, and the chime "dizzying-spinning" was unsatisfactory. The lines swayed and lurched in her clumsy hands, uncontrollable. Still, such as it was, she had an octave.
And there it seemed to end. She had reached the full close, and had nothing more to say. She could find no turn for the sestet to take, no epigram, no change of mood. She put down a tentative line or two and crossed them out. If the right twist would not come of itself, it was useless to manufacture it. She had her image -- the world sleeping like a great top on its everlasting spindle -- and anything added to that would be mere verse-making. Something might come of it someday. In the meanwhile she had got her mood on to paper -- and this is the release that all writers, even the feeblest, seek for as men seek for love; and, having found it, they doze off happily into dreams and trouble their hearts no further.