Hi, Carl! I can see why you were concerned about workshopping this one.
Trigger warning for child sexual victimization....
I'm struck by the narrator's admission of fright in the beginning, followed by the slow revelation that the narrator is probably frightened of his own disturbing fantasizes and/or behavior. The vividness of the disposal scenario after the blackout and bliss certainly suggests that it's not just fantasies going on.
I see the torture of a feeble/flabby body in the middle of the poem as the narrator's somewhat self-exonerating claim that the summertime glimpses of unsupervised little girls in short skirts torture him and his own weak flesh (Matthew 26:41) with tempting opportunities. As if he's the real victim here.
The final four lines of the poem have a different sequence and emphasis in the crib than in your verse version. To me, the implication of the original order is that the kid was murdered before the sexual stuff happened, possibly to reduce the risk of discovery (due to screaming).
Since riding crops are specifically designed to avoid tearing skin (usually with a wide, slapping tip), perhaps it was the handle was what was purpled, after being used penetratively. Oookay, not a thought I want to dwell on....
I wonder if the reader is supposed to recognize a particular literary or real-life villain in these oddly specific details. There's a certain ripped-from-the-headlines feel to the mention of the riding crop. M.A. Griffiths wrote at least two poems from the perspective of a child-murderer, which likewise mentioned specific paraphernalia from news stories.
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