[Harry Nicolas]

Hey Hilary,

E.E. Cummings has been a massive influence on my poetry. I wasn’t necessarily trying to emulate him here but I can see the resemblance.

The over arching theme of this poem is struggling with symptoms of neurodivergence, specifically things like adjustment, following rules.

The title is to show how people with Attention deficit disorder put things off and I just wanted a funny way to show how I "forgot to finish" the title by not replacing the placeholder and uploaded it impulsively without taking the time to not come up with a title.

the scrambled syntax is meant to first throw the reader off and act as showing the reader how people with a neurodivergent condition like Autism spectrum disorder struggle with adjusting and learning social norms, have to adapt(like how the syntax goes back to normal in the second stanza), then reverts back, then changes again.

Another aspect of ASD is following instruction and misinterpreting social cues. The language is abrupt and I tried to make it similar to orders being yelled like a drill sargeant to mimc how it can be stressful for someone trying to follow instructions like lerning to drive a car or having their photo taken while also navigating dealing with the constant correction.

the driving part is supposed to mimic being thrown into uncomfortable environments. "I know you’re used to getting in the other side" is supposed to tell the reader that this person is driving in the reversed side drive country and the process of dealing with adjusting mentally.

Also the photography part is supposed to mimic masking since the "look at the lens directly" is supposed to mimic struggling with eye contact and with facial expressions. I guess the photography could be a metaphor for changing your behavior/masking in order to fit in/seem normal. the lens/ camera represents being judged by society.

Cloud seeding is the process of artificially creating clouds to make it rain, like taking stimulant medication in order to "artificially" make you focus. Hyperfocus for long periods of time is another aspect of ADHD so I tried highlighting that.

I have ADHD and ASD so I was trying to show the reader going through some of those things.

And Glenn to answer your questions. The word is intentionally mispelled, and I can change wording of the the other line.