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After the Wilderness
MAY 3, 1863

When Clifford wasn‘t back to camp by nine,
I went to look among the fields of dead
before we lost him to a common grave.
But I kept tripping over living men
and had to stop and carry them to help
or carry them until they died,
which happened more than once upon my back.
And I got angry with those men because
they kept me from my search and I was out
still stumbling through the churned-up earth at dawn,
stopping to stare into each corpse‘s face,
and all the while I was writing in my head
the letter I would have to send our father,
saying Clifford was lost and I had lost him.

I found him bent above a dying squirrel
while trying to revive the little thing.
A battlefield is full of trash like that —
dead birds and squirrels, bits of uniform.
Its belly racked for air. It couldn‘t live.
Cliff knew it couldn‘t live without a jaw.
When in relief I called his name, he stared,
jumped back, and hissed at me like a startled cat.
I edged up slowly, murmuring ―Clifford, Cliff,‖
as you might talk to calm a skittery mare,
and then I helped him kill and bury all
the wounded squirrels he‘d gathered from the field.
It seemed a game we might have played as boys.
We didn‘t bury them all at once, with lime,
the way they do on burial detail,
but scooped a dozen, tiny, separate graves.
When we were done he fell across the graves
and sobbed as though they‘d been his unborn sons.
His chest was large — it covered most of them.
I wiped his tears and stroked his matted hair,
and as I hugged him to my chest I saw
he‘d wet his pants. We called it Yankee tea.

Andrew Hudgins, ―After the Wilderness‖ from After the Last War. Copyright © 1988 by Andre Hudgins.
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